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Herkes bir şeyler ister kimisi az kimisi çok ama ister. Çok istersin olması için ama olmaz. Elinden gelen herşeyi yaparsın yine olmaz.
İstemek… bir şeyin olmasını istemek… gerçekten istemek nedir?
İstemek olmayı istediğin, olmasını istediğin şey için ölmeyi göze almak, ölecek kadar istemek, hatta olmak için, olması için ölmek demek!
İstemek…bir şeyin olmasını istemek… onu dilemek… onu arzulamak… tutkuyla… hırsla… ihtirasla onun olması için yanıp tutuşmak…
Ah ne zordur istemek? İstek sahibi olmak… tutku sahibi olmak… İstemek "bedel ödemek" demek… bedelini hesap etmeksizin istemek demek… bedeli ne olursa olsun istemek demek... isteğin şiddeti arttıkça ödenecek bedelin miktarının da artacağını bilmek demek… bedeli büyük olduğu için olması istenenden kaçmak değil, bedeli büyük olduğu için olması istenene koşmak demek.
Gönül cenneti istiyor imiş ammâ günahlar bırakmıyormuş. Gönlümüzün isteklerini, istediklerini engelleyecek günah mı varmış bu dünyada?
Gönül bir kere isterse, gönlün kendisi cennet olmaz mı? Bir kere gönül cenneti isterse dağlar tepeler düzlük, denizler yol olmaz mı insana?
Günah istemesini bilmeyenlerin, istemek nedir bilmeyenlerin içine yuvarlandığı çukur değil mi?
İsteseydin eğer, olmak istediğin, olmasını istediğin olurdu. Olmadığına göre sen henüz istememişsin demektir.
Sen hiç istemedin ki dostum! İstemek nedir ki bilmedin ki! Hiç tutulmadın sen! Tutkuların için ölmedin ki! İsteseydin ölürdün, ölseydin olurdun! Sen hiç olmadın ki! Evet olmadın, çünkü sen hiç ölmedin! Ölecek kadar istemedin, ölümün pahasına istemedin, ölümüne istemedin!
Sen hiç istemedin ki dostum! İstemesini bilmedin! Çünkü sen ol deyince olduranı hiç tanımadın!